Neighbors
i love having a friend nearby. Especially a guy, lately i’ve just been getting sick of girls. I like the no bullshitness of guys, the realist aspect of them i guess, lol. and the best part is that he’s gay, but it still feels like hanging out with a guy. so i don’t have to worry about jealous boyfriends or unwarranted feelings, but i still get the sheer honesty, the bluntness. i don’t have to worry about hurting someone’s feelings.
also it’s kind of fun to finally be the one hanging out with a guy all of the time so jeff finally knows what it feels like. even though my friend’s gay, jeff still gets a little jealous. it’s kind of cute, and funny in an ironic sort of way.
it’s strange tho bc neither of them have hung out with each other. usually, im the one who is hanging out with each separately, like usual i guess. its the same way with all my other friends. i guess i feel kind of uncomfortable in group situations, like i have to make everyone happy…hmm. something i want to change. but yeah, i think im going to try to get everyone to hangout today, see how the group dynamics work. maybe it will be fun!
12:34
9-9-11
My mom wants me to be an optometrist
haha being a lawyer just got thrown out the window. i hate poli sci and briefs. now taking dance classes! i wish my career could be writing poetry, arguing about gender norms, racial norms and class norms all while reading books. oh yeah, and i want to sing and dance on the side. lol
so sick of all the cultural pressure. i just want to be happy.
18:08
9-7-11
the studio
finally some inspiration for poetry!
0:41
8-27-11
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0:18
8-23-11
N/W apt. :)
wow, i’m here, by myself. but i don’t feel lonely. sometimes i do, but it’s not something stable; it comes and goes. this will take some getting used to, but i think i like it :) i’ll have time to read finally, once i get this place cleaned up. i get so focused on organizing and cleaning sometimes, i get so off focus!!
0:15
8-23-11
Moving in!
Omg I am NOT ready to move in on Sat. where to start? Ahh still have to go to the store, lol pack an air mattress until i try the beds…look at their furniture, figure out the look i am going for—i think romantic bohemian, ya, a mix of boho prints and victorian looking furniture, girly stuff. hmm. i really want to get those chinese hanging lights from the hippie store downtown, but i dont know how to hang them up? it says bulb and wire not included, but there are bulbs sitting right next to it, but no wire…
I need to pack…everything! omg i feel so behind! but i am pretty excited :) finally, i can be myself.
AND all of my friends can come whenever they want!!
13:39
8-17-11
